If you could see the lover in me

"Nothing is more powerful than the power of caring. For yourself. For another. This Christmas season... the power is in you." Now that's were they've been hiding the good stuff! In the "on hold" music. You could really learn a lot from it.
I've got a confession to make. I've got an addiction. I've got a silent auction addiction. For those of you who have known me for a long time, i'm sure you know this. ...It's not like i go for little dinky things that are useless. I have limits. But give me good prizes and I'm game. I got to do it. I'll fill out my ballets, select meticulously what i want. And wait. My name gets called ...ppl say "ah, Jill you won." then i say while brushing the dust off my shoulder "it was nuthin." But when my name doesn't get called. I give an incredulous stare. My head peaking around looking for my name. Pissed off, i slowly walk away.
Speaking of zombies. I had another zombie dream last night. I was stuck in this school with zombies and non-zombies. ...Well, first it was a mall. Anyways, in th end i was stuck in a bathroom and i would peak out the door and see every once and a while a huge crowd of ppl run up or down the hallway with zombies after them. lol. Fools. So i was hiding in the bathroom. and i was the only person actually killing the zombies. ...Fucking tard humans. Then there ended up being this cage with lions in them, but they were statues. then the janitor or somebody walked into the cage while talkin about how much he enjoys lions. Well, the lions turned into zombies. Not just any zombies, the head zombies. I guess we're talkin vampires now? ...so dracula times two? ...Anyhoo, they could talk, and pretty much said you're all fucked. However they were stuck in the cages. So i say they're all fucked except me, cause i'm goin to get the hell out of there. ...and i woke up.
I think cheese graters were not meant to be washed by hand. For example, i'm missing a piece of my finger right now. And my sis likes to use the damn thing when it's my turn to do dishes ...fuckin cunt. It stings!
A realized today that a fear of mine is that one day while i'm preoccupied with something or just unaware, the people that are around me will break out into song and dance and i'll miss out on it. all of it. ....I'd only tune in just in time to see them hit the last note and final pose. Then i'd be the saddest person alive. Don't do it guys.
Speaking of sad. I found out today that Starsailor open for James Blunt. Tsss. ....phhh. erg. I check ticketmaster like every week ...okay, maybe once a month. And i heard nothing! NOTHING! about Starsailor. Excuse me while i weep.